so i realized my header was WAY too long. i started thinking of a single word or little phrase to "name" this blog (which was ONLY going to be about my trip...but apparently i am kind of liking the bloggy word thingy for now-until summer. then we'll see...)
so i tried to come up with something cutesy & that rhymed. i could be the stoner corner (only b/c of the last name) but that just didn't seem very appropriate. then i liked the word kaleidoscope (more for the meaning) "continually changing patterns, shapes & colors". i feel that's a pretty accurate description of myself. how else do you describe sinner saved by grace, wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend.......? who i am usually depends on who i am with. if i'm with my family, i tend to lean on them & be the "daughter"-usually in need of some reassuring words (especially when it comes to dave's job lately-will he have one or won't he??? ever changing) when i'm with my boys i'm mother, supporter, teacher, nurse, chauffeur, housekeeper, etc...... so, i feel like a kaleidoscope :) but then i settled on adoration. not because i think i am good at it, but it's something i hope to accomplish (but usually fail) daily. "act of paying honor as to God, worship, fervent & devoted love". i'd love to say i bring glory to God in all i do. i'd love to say you can see His love through me in the smallest of things, but you probably won't when you look at me. i fail daily. i usually know a "better way" than God's way. i'm so thankful for His grace! i don't follow Him like i should. instead of leaving me face down in the dust or saying "told you so" He picks me up and carries me. so, i don't follow Him daily, He carries me daily. so adoration is something i would love to accomplish daily
on another note..i have mentioned before that i have been following a blog bring the rain (http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/) i have not read it since i have been home so was quick catching up on her posts last night. this is an incredible woman who has gone through an unimaginable tragedy. she has so many followers and so many leave comments (so many that i don't read them but i am sure they are very nice) it seems that someone was tearing her down with their comments. here is a grieving mother who started this blog that has touched so many and someone is kicking her while she is down. it was so heartbreaking. why do we do that? why do we spit out such hurtful words, and often to people who are already hurting? we had friends go through a serious accident several years ago, and while people are maybe trying to say something kind, they'd say something hurtful or stupid. i just love chuck swindoll and have had this in my Bible since i was a sr in high school:
"The longer I live, the more I
realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to
me, is more important than facts. It is more
important than the past, than education, than
money, than circumstances, than failures, than
successes, than what other people say or think or
do. It is more important than appearance,
giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a
company, a church, or home. The remarkable
thing is that we have a choice every day regarding
the attitude we embrace for that day. We cannot
change our past. Nor can we change the fact that
people will act a certain way. We also cannot
change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is
play on the one string we have, and that is our
attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent
what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to
it. And so it is with you - we are in charge of our
attitudes." (From Improving Your Serve)
our true attitudes are reflected in our speech. what spills out of our mouths is what's really in our hearts. so we tend to say hurtful bitter things b/c there must be pain & bitterness somewhere in our hearts (i don't know how to relate this to saying stupid things-i often say really dumb things too) Matt 12:34 Jesus says "for out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks" we can look at peter. he said some really stupid things, and even denied Jesus. yet, Jesus forgave and loved him unconditionally. it still hurts when we hear cruel things.
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